Contributed by: Dr. Equbal Wajid
Before starting for my 4month’s trip in the path of Allah to Assam, I took photocopies of my testimonials with the intention that it may be of use. Besides my miseries, which I had left behind and the un-sheltered future of my professional carrier, I enjoyed a lot. In this journey, I had experienced lot of things which is rarely found in someone’s life. This memorable trip of mine taught me not to ask anyone for anything except Allah. So I practiced not to ask anybody for anything including debt.
Although, asking for debt has been permitted by the Prophet of Islam [Peace Be on him], and the way shown to us by the Prophet is the way of success for the entire mankind. But I believe , at that time I exaggerated the point of self-respect and never asked for anything to anyone even if I could face big hardships. For example, in those days if I am going somewhere and I lost my money or everything. I will not ask anyone to help even if I may die of hunger or fail to do all the needful.
These emotions remained in my live for merely one year. In those days of my emotional climax I witnessed how Allah helps his creature. How He feeds His creature. How he reacts when he finds his men not asking anyone in even utmost miseries.
Our Jamat [Party] was staying in a Mosque in Guahati city, the capital of Assam. I had severe fever attack. I had no money with me. I deposited some money to the Ameer Jamat [Head of the Group] for daily expenses and I didn’t know how much it was remaining with him. Now the Jamat [Group] was to move forward . It was not possible for me to go with them. The Ameer Jammat [Head of the Group] told me to stay in the same Mosque until I am cured. He left me in the evening. I asked nothing to him. I don’t take any medicine as it is my practice for a long time. Specially , in case of fever I wait for three days and let the body fight against with the fever. If the fever continues even after three days then I had been taken some anti-analgesic or anti-paretic tablets.
When in fever I had been always egger to eat meat, fishes, and highly spiced items. I have never stopped eating as the others do. It has always helped me in fever. I was laying idle in the corner of the mosque. Nobody noticed me. The Esha Salah [Night Prayer] was done. I also joined the Prayer.
Now everybody left the mosque. I was empty stomach and empty pocket. I lay down on the floor to take rest. Hours had passed, now there was no hope for food. Suddenly a man came to me in the darkness. He asked me for medicines. I refused. Then he went and came back after a while ,with a tiffin-carrier containing very tasty cooked fishes and rice just suitable to my taste. I don’t refused and ate all of it. I was sure that my fever will go. It so happened in the morning that my fever cooled down.
When the morning was dawned I was again empty stomach. I was thinking about the breakfast. It was 9 am. Nobody was there in the Mosque. Again I lay down, asking Allah to send some thing. After a while a man entered the Mosque. He offered prayer. I was gazing at him through the corner of my eyes. I saw he is coming to me. When he for his hand to join, I noticed something in my palm. It was a 100 rupees note. He gave it to me and went away. It was more than enough for me to fulfill my needs. I ate, drank and thanked Allah.
One day I went to meet a young Muslim Cleric in Guahati. I saw a news paper there, “SEH ROZA DAWAT” published from New Delhi. I learned through it that some posts for Wardens have fallen vacant in Jamia Tul Falah [ Islamic University] at Belariyaganj Azamgarh. U.P. I have never heard about Jamiatul Falah. But I assumed that it is a Madrasa and it belongs to Jamat-e-Islami. I said to myself :
“What can I do in an Arabic institution.?’
I thought again and again and them decided to apply for the post. I was confident that I can do the job. I wrote a forwarding a letter along with my application. I gave a brief introduction of Insan School/College in the letter. I wrote openly that if they want to hire me as a warden and to pay me at least Rs1000/- per month, then they have to send me the fare to come for interview until such and such date. My letter touched their sentiments and the Nazim [ Manager ] of Jamiatul Falah, instead of giving any kind of reply to my letter, called on a meeting of his management and decided to come to Kishanganj to see me, along with his three management staff. Unfortunately they came one day later to the dead line given by me, so I couldn’t met them.
After spending 4 months in the path of Allah when I returned back, I was bond to leave Kishanganj, as there were no means to stay there anymore. I came to know that Mr. Mohammad Shees had been called back from Insan School/College in my absence.
The whole day I used to wander in the campus elsewhere, go to eat in the Dining Hall and in the evening sit and talk with my colleagues. There was an wooden table laying necked on the top floor of the Head Office Building in the open. At night I use to sleep on it, without using a bed or pillow or any kind of covering. As it was the summer season so there was no need for coverings. In the morning I again wander here and there in the campus. The purpose of my stay in the Head Office building, was to pressurize Dr. Syed Hasan through my presence. It was a message to him that I will not leave the Campus without clearing off my all dues.
I followed my same routine for about fifteen days. Then, one day, I was called on and all the dues of my net salaries were cleared, except the amount of my earn leaves and some other deductions. The total amount which I got was RS17000/- [seventeen thousand Indian rupees]. I had never possessed such an amount in my life. My all miseries had gone. I was too glad. Everybody told me that I am lucky that my dues has being cleared off.
After one year, out of severe need of money I again went to Kishanganj, I decided to resign, as I thought that after resignation my rest amount would be cleared off. It was a matter of Rs7000/- only. I resigned with the hope that I will get Rs7000/- cleared, but unfortunately it appeared as the last blow of Dr. Syed Hasan’s deception to me. He wrote on my resignation letter.
“ DARKHAST MANZOOR KI JATI HAI. IN KA HISAB BE BAAQ JKARDIA JAI”.
[ Accepted. His dues should be cleared off.]
When I asked the cashier Mohammad Jamil Bhai for money , he told me that Dr. Syed Hasan has told him nothing about the payment. Unless he didn’t say verbally, he can’t pay anything.
I was so sad, that finally, I was deceived by him. Nevertheless, I came back and never asked for money again. I still feel the pain of the hypocrisy and deception of this person on my foolish act to resign from the post to get my dues [ Rs7000/- ] cleared.
Had I not been facing severe miseries and hardships, and had I not been as much needy for the money [Rs7000/-] I may not have resigned Insan College, in the fake hope to get the dues cleared off (to be continued).
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